At the end of the decade, I said 2020 was a preparatory year for “a decade of realised dreams”. That is not how it’s panned out, because I’ve just left my second job in six months.
Back in August, I spoke about my hopes and fears for the job I’ve just left. I’m happy to say that after a rough first couple of weeks, I really liked it! It was a good job to do, and I was surrounded by an amazingly supportive team. The lessons I learned there I am taking forward into my new role, but I knew that staying there wasn’t for me and they all knew it too. One reason why I’m so excited about my next job is because it’s not in care.
Ever since I left university, I’ve only worked in care – both private and public. Of my two and a half years’ experience of care, two of those years have been in the NHS. Now, I’m not here to talk about how it was. The factors that go into forming my opinion – both good and bad – are far too complex to list here, and I choose to keep my work life away from my online life. All you need to know is the jump I’ve been talking about making, I have now made.
It’s terrifying to escape your comfort zone and financial security in the pursuit of your dreams, but this risk has been heavily calculated. It’s two-fold:
- My artistic ambitions, now officially a company called Emma Smiler Alton, which I’ve been training for and have plans to release things this year for, as promised.
- My new career – and I mean career because, unlike the NHS (because I don’t want to be a nurse), I can actually progress up the ladder.
This new chapter of my life feels weird. I said to my fiancé after leaving my old job that it feels like being a student again: totally free. I don’t see my new job as something tying me down. I’m doing it for the love of it, because I want to and have chosen to. It’s a risk, as dreams are, but the benefits far, far outweigh it.
Everything that happens now is down to me. My success is under my control, and my failures too. If I’m successful, that’s amazing! If I mess up, I have to fix it myself. I know I’ll still make mistakes, we all do, but what really matters is that they’re not high-consequence mistakes. Some people could find that daunting; I find it a challenge that I’m more than ready to face! I embrace the challenge, I’m looking forward to it. I’m not setting up to start next year…
I’ve already started.